Sunday, April 23, 2006

Book Ramblings ...

!@##@! So smart of me.... eeps.....now i have to come back at 4.45am for timed expt. !@#@ It was 15hr not 1hr. Just whinging. In fact, we are encouraged to whinge at postgrads gathering. Come and whinge! - coz basically everyone is in the same state of affairs, so everyone understands what everyone is going through and you feel loads better your results were much better than XX though worse than XZ (but obviously we choose to ignore that fact and just be consoled that it was better than XX).

Ok im done with my 5mins of grumbling. I shall lift from a section of the book i was reading at breakfast:

Author writes -
What is this thing in me - and in most men - that just doesnt want to go deep into a woman's world? You are too much. Too hard. It's too much work. Men are simpler. Easier. And isnt that the message you've lived with all your life as a woman? "You're too much, and not enough. You're just not worth the effort." (And why is it such an effort? There must be something wrong with you.) This is men's cowardice. He fears that having delved into his woman's world, he wont have what it takes to help her there. Because of her shame, a man gets away with his cowardice. Most relationships reach this sort of unspoken settlement. "Im not coming any closer. This is as far as im willing to go. But, i wont leave, and that ought to make you happy." This sort of detente, cordial agreement to live only so close.

The effect is that most women feel alone.

This passivity, this 'backing off' is the emotional and spiritual equivalent of leaving a little girl by the side of the road to die. No one will ever truely come for you. You are alone.

Me writing:
Maybe thats why there's so many lesbians. Most men would not take the next step towards that deeper emotional link that women need?? To be in a relationship and yet still feel alone when together - something is amiss.

This entry by a blogger - hrmm ... most uncomfortably hit the bullseye.
Urgghhhh!!!!! i brought my coke into the lab and drank it .... poisoned poisoned......choke choke*. How about a last kiss before my death ;p ? Security guard's fault!! if he didnt scare me, i wouldnt have been so scatterbrained! Pui*!!

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