STOP IT !

Ughhh! please please please ... i beg of all. Quit asking me when im going back to S'pore!! When i say i dont know. They change and ask, "so when are you finishing?" Isnt that the same freaking question asked differently???!!! What the! I know people are just concerned. They just want to know whats happening in my life. Whats my timeline like. When will they see me again. Etc etc... the fact of the matter is that question has not left my mind and has constantly plagued my nights. So you by constantly asking is aggrevating my mental instability spiralling downwards and if i kill myself, my blood is on your freaking hands. So give me some space here and quit breathing down my neck. Why dont you put yourselves in my position and be confused where, what and how i should proceed from here and still have to juggle work and research and writing on top of that and still have people pressurizing me on questions i cant answer and making me feel even more lost. So STOP the stupid questions and let me breathe freely and have a conversation w/o being constantly slapped in the face with questions that never did left my mind and giving me restless nights. And stop asking me about my thesis!! You know whats the best selling postgrad tee - It is printed on the front : Stop Asking about my Thesis! Look.....im reminded everyday of it so stop hammering me down harping on it constantly. Now i know why KZ never liked to talk about her work when i ask her about it. Coz we are constantly thinking about our research, fraught with problem after problem to solve and really when you are out having dinner with a friend and trying to relax - STOP reminding us about what we go through every freaking waking and half-asleep minute!!!!!! im internally shaking as the question gets repeatedly asked. I'd appreciate more if you kept the conversation away from such things and just be more sensitive to the pressure im already facing. Otherwise understand why i stop talking to you. thank you.